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Reflections on the Year

As I think back on this past year, it was quite a year!  One that I could never have predicted, filled with lots of ups and downs, twists and turns!  As we spent this year on a journey, our paths were often not what we planned, but each time one door closed another was opened.  We learned that part of the joy of life is living out the journey, walking through the doors that opened and not knowing what to expect is on the other side!

This year we added a new daughter to our family and a new grand dog, Louie.  We added new friends and discovered new adventures that God had planned for us.  We had to say goodbye to a job that I loved.  When we thought we knew what was next, God had new ideas for us.

We learned about patience and taking one day at a time.  I learned about letting go of control and what it means to trust God!  We were led to start a non-profit to do ministry with pastors, church leaders and other non-profits, but then had to wait over six months to find out if our request for non-profit status would be accepted or not.

My word for 2017 was Peace.  It was a fitting choice as it was something that I needed to search for and find as we went through the twists of this year.  And the good news is I feel that God did fill me with His peace this year.  While it was a year of being without an income while we worked on starting our new ministry, God still provided and I never felt stressed about finding the resources needed to pay our bills.  Even as we had to take a step of faith on spending money for ministry work, God always provided and we had enough to cover our expenses.

This year has been a year of learning.  Learning to run a business instead of being employed by someone else.  Learning the lessons of writing and the process of getting a book published.  We have had to learn to live on trust and how to humble ourselves by having to ask for money to support our ministry.  Being a self-made person who has always prided myself on my independence and not needing anyone to help me, God is teaching me that this is also a form of idolatry.  I have to let go of the idolatry of doing things on my own and put my trust in Him.  That is harder to do than it sounds!  But through it all, I have sensed God’s direction and leading in my life!  I have felt closer to God than I have ever been in the past.  As I blogged earlier this year, God is teaching me that He is enough.

In 2017 I expected that I would be saying goodbye to my mom as her health declined, but like the ever-ready bunny, every time we thought she was nearing the end she would rebound and be stronger than before.

As I look forward to 2018 there is much to be excited about!  On December 28th we learned that our 501(c)3 application had been approved and that we should receive our official paperwork in the next couple of weeks.  We have ministry trips planned for February, March and July and maybe more to be added.  We have a new grandchild due the beginning of June. God has opened doors for ministry and we are trying to walk through them.  We feel unqualified to do what we are being asked to do, but we know that is where God wants us to be.

There are three prayer requests that I would like to leave with you today.

First, that God would continue to use us and that we would bring glory to God in all that we do.  That we would continue to be faithful to walk through the doors that God opens for us and do what He calls us to each day!

Second, that God would prepare the hearts of those we will be working with this year.  That they would be open to new ideas, making changes in their lives or ministry and that God would use them in amazing ways to help bring more people into a relationship with God this year.

Third, that God will provide the resources needed for us to do the ministry He is calling us to.  Stepping out into ministry means that we have to trust God and that we move forward even when we do not know where the resources will come from.  Pray that God will lead us to individuals who would want to join us by praying for and supporting Potential Endeavors.

We look forward to seeing what God has planned for us in 2018.  I am sure that it will be filled with unexpected joys and challenges, but I can’t wait to see what is ahead for us!

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Have you ever had a visit from an Angel?

One of my favorite stories during the Christmas season involve the angels who visit Mary and Joseph.  They are just normal people going about their lives and God sends an angel to each of them telling them that God is going to use them in a powerful way and that they will be part of God’s plans for the world.  We usually read these passages during December, but considering it takes 9 months for a baby to develop, these visits from an angel probably happened in February or early March, assuming December 25th was when Jesus was actually born.  Here is the passage about the angel’s visit to Mary:

Gabriel appeared to her and said, “Greetings, favored woman! The Lord is with you!” Confused and disturbed, Mary tried to think what the angel could mean. “Don’t be afraid, Mary,” the angel told her, “for you have found favor with God! You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you will name him Jesus. He will be very great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his ancestor David. And he will reign over Israel forever; his Kingdom will never end!”

Mary asked the angel, “But how can this happen? I am a virgin.” The angel replied, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the baby to be born will be holy, and he will be called the Son of God. What’s more, your relative Elizabeth has become pregnant in her old age! People used to say she was barren, but she has conceived a son and is now in her sixth month. For nothing is impossible with God.”

Mary responded, “I am the Lord’s servant. May everything you have said about me come true.” And then the angel left her. (Luke 1:26-38 NLT)

I love Mary’s response – I am the Lord’s servant!  Said another way, I am willing to do what you have asked me to!  I think about that and I ask myself “Is that how I would respond?”  Becoming pregnant before being married and being told you are carrying the Son of the Most High is pretty scary.  She could have said, “pick someone else” or “I’m not good enough”, but she didn’t.  Instead she responded with I am here for You to do as You plan.  WOW!

I think about how this relates to my life.  What is my response when God wants me to do something?  Do I say that I will do whatever He wants?  Or do I place limits on God by only doing what I want to do?  Yes, I will do what you want – as long as it easy for me and doesn’t result in any sacrifice or loss of fun.  I think I often respond with “here are my plans, now God please bless them.”

This past year has been an opportunity to live this out.  I didn’t choose to lose my job and have to start over, but that was God’s plan for me.  I don’t want to have to raise funds and ask others to give, but that is what God has asked us to do.  I thought I knew where God wanted us to do ministry, but those doors closed.  God is calling us to work with pastors and youth in Ukraine and it would be easy to say that I am not qualified or send someone else, but God calls me and I know I need to be like Mary and simply say “I am the Lord’s servant” and go!

What about you?  What is God asking you to do?  What is your response to His call?  What sacrifice is he asking you to make?  I am learning that when God asks you to do something there is always a sacrifice involved, but is that a bad thing?  Often what seems like a sacrifice is often really just a comfort or wanting to be in control.  I often think giving up what I have is a sacrifice, but in reality, a sacrifice is often giving what you don’t have.  It is saying yes to doing something even when you don’t know how you will pay for it or find the resources to do it.  It is saying yes even when you don’t feel qualified or good enough.  It is letting go of control and doing what does not come easy.

During this Christmas season as you hear the Christmas story and reflect on Jesus’s birth, remember back to Mary’s response and ask yourself what does God want you to give to Him this Christmas?  What will your response be when God wants to use you?

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Have you ever jumped from an airplane?

 

What if our spiritual walk with God was like a sky diving adventure.  Think of it like this – God is our pilot, Jesus in the jump instructor and the Holy Spirit is our parachute.  We have all been offered the gift of salvation through Jesus Christ.  For this analogy, the gift of salvation is like being given a sky diving experience.  We all have the opportunity to accept the gift, but many choose to not accept it.  It is not for them; they are scared of heights; they just don’t want to experience sky diving.  Those who accept the gift from the jump instructor arrive at the airport and are given sky diving instructions from the jump instructor.  They are given a jump manual (Bible) and encouraged to read it.  The manual provides instructions on how to make the sky diving experience successful and what to do when you encounter problems along the way.

When you arrive, you are given your parachute and explained how it works and how to wear it.  Before you board the plane, you put on your parachute and get ready for your adventure.  Remember, this journey was a gift and did not cost you anything.  All you were asked to do was listen to the instructions, read the manual and wear the parachute.  This is where our journey will talk about four different passengers.

Passenger 1 accepted the gift, went through the training, put on the parachute, but as they were walking towards the plane started to see all kinds of obstacles.  The plane was too small, the engines were too noisy, the seats did not look comfortable and the parachute seemed to restricting.  Passenger 1 decided to not get on the plane and was going to look for a better plane to sky dive from.

Passenger 2 went through the same steps, but got on the plane and prepared for the experience.  But as the plane reached the jump zone, passenger 2 decided he was not interested in jumping.  He liked the comfort of the plane and knowing that he was going to be safe.  The jump instructor tried to encourage passenger 2 to jump and trust him, but in the end, he refused.  He was told the parachute would protect and guide him to his destination, but the passenger just wanted to enjoy the flight and the snacks and entertainment.

Passenger 3 went through the same steps, but when the plane entered the jump zone and the door was opened, this passenger froze and was afraid to take the step of faith to make the jump.  The jump instructor encouraged him, reminded him of the instructions in the manual, explained that the parachute would be with him, but the passenger just stood at the door and froze.  Finally, after much encouragement, the jump instructor pushed the passenger out the door and his adventure began.  At first, he screamed in fear as he began falling towards the ground.  But as he caught his breath, he remembered the words of the jump instructor and pulled the release cord for his parachute.  The parachute deployed and slowed his fall.  At first the passenger did not remember what to do and just let the wind blow him where it would.  But as he remembered the words of the instructor and what he read in the manual, he started to work with parachute to guide his journey towards the destination.  He realized that the words and teaching were correct and he felt more and more comfortable as he learned to trust the parachute and he believed he would now safely arrive at destination.  Now, what is true of most first-time jumpers? They will make some mistakes and they miss the target or land too hard and injure themselves along the way, but they realize that the parachute works and the instructions are true and they want to jump again in the future.

Passenger 4 was an experienced jumper.  He had done many jumps before and he was on his next journey.  But, even though he was experienced and had been there before, he still listened to the jump instructor, still read through the manual and made sure that his parachute was safely fastened before he entered the plane.  When it was time to jump, he walked to the door, looked out and took in the beauty around him.  After a deep breath he jumped and fell towards the earth.  He enjoyed the exhilaration of the fall, but he knew his parachute was right there with him and ready to open when the time was right.  When he pulled the cord, the parachute deployed and he used it to guide him to his destination.  He hit the target and landed smoothly on his feet.

When you think of the four passengers, which one is you?  For me I have been passenger number three.  I needed to be pushed out of plane.  But after being pushed, I have enjoyed the freedom, the beauty and excitement of allowing the parachute to get me to my destination.  I have found that stepping out of my comfort zone has provided new opportunities to trust God and see Him working in ways I would have missed in the past.

I loved the Jesus Calling devotional for December 9th.  It says:

BE WILLING TO GO OUT on a limb with Me. If that is where I am leading you, it is the safest place to be. Your desire to live a risk-free life is a form of unbelief. Your longing to live close to Me is at odds with your attempts to minimize risk. You are approaching a crossroads in your journey. In order to follow Me wholeheartedly, you must relinquish your tendency to play it safe.

 

Let Me lead you step by step through this day. If your primary focus is on Me, you can walk along perilous paths without being afraid. Eventually, you will learn to relax and enjoy the adventure of our journey together. As long as you stay close to Me, My sovereign Presence protects you wherever you go.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. —PSALM 23:4

 

Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you. —PSALM 9:10

 

“Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.” —JOHN 12:26

 

 

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I’m Going to be a Grandpa!

This week my son and daughter-in-law announced that they are expecting their first child.  This means that I will be a grandpa for the first time!  Why is it that this is one of the statements that you never forget?  When I think about my life, there are four decisions or statements that stand out for me:

When I accepted Jesus as my Savior.

When Beth, my wife, said “I DO”.

When I found out that I was going to be a dad (three times).

When I found out I am going to be grandpa!  Hopefully many times!

 

When I think about these events in my life, where are three things that stand out to me:

First, they are all about relationships.  Truly the relationships in our lives are the most important things and the things that really matter and that stand out to me.

Second, none of them are about the jobs I have had in my life.  Work is important and it provides the income you need to provide for your needs, but it is not the thing that is significant in my life.

Third, none of them are about things.  I could buy all the gadgets and toys in the world, but they would not stand out as an event that I remember or look forward to.  In many respects they are just distractions that take me away from the relationships that really matter.

If these things are true for you, what are you doing to strengthen the relationships in your life?  Have you told the people in your life how important they are to you and what they mean to you?  Have you spent time talking to God and listening for His direction in your life?  Do you need to make some changes, maybe spend less time working or playing with your toys and more time talking with your spouse, children and God?

There are always things in our past we wish we would have done differently, maybe putting more emphasis on the relationships that are really important.  But there is nothing stopping you from making relationships a priority today.  Try to be more intentional at being more involved and engaged with those that really matter, including the time you spend with God.

 

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Thankful, Grateful, Blessed

One of our family’s Thanksgiving traditions is to go around the table at dinner time and share what you are thankful this year.  As my turn came, I found myself getting very emotional.  As I started to share, I realized that this year has been quite a year for me.  I have gone through a lot of change with the loss of my job, my dog and having to move my mom into a nursing facility.  But this year has also brought some incredible blessings for which I am incredibly thankful.  So I as reflect on this season, here are three things that I am thankful for:

My Family – this year we were able to add a new family member.  It was such a joy to be able to marry our son Colin and Katelyn last January.  It is so much fun to see the two of them and their love for each other.  When I lost my job, it was my family who came to my side to support and encourage me.  As I wrote my book that is coming out soon, they were there to provide input, share ideas and push me to keep moving forward.  They helped with design work and they were the reason why the book was completed and ready to print.

My relationship with God – this past year has been a year of incredible growth in understanding how God loves me.  I have learned to be better at putting my trust in Him and letting go of my own control.  Losing your job is never easy, but because of being unemployed it gave me an opportunity to put my trust in God fully, and He has not let me down.  He has provided for our needs, directed us to new opportunities and shown us that His plans are always greater than our own.  If you asked me a year ago what I would be doing now, I would never have guessed that we would have started a non-profit, a publishing company, written a book.  In addition, we are working with other non-profits and doing ministry with churches and youth in Ukraine.

Friendships – Going through difficult times really helps you see who your friends are.  This past year we have seen the encouragement from old friends and we have had the opportunity to build new friendships with the margin we now had.  It was fun to reconnect with old friends that our work had caused us to not have enough time for.  As with any change, we have also had to say goodbye to people who we no longer connected with because of not working together.

What are you thankful for this year?  What will God do in your life this next year?

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How do we respond when we sense God is asking us to do something?

 

This blog is an excerpt from my book that will be coming out soon.  The book is titled “Swallowed by a Whale – Twice.  Facing Life’s unexpected Twists and Turns.”  I hope you enjoy.

 How do we respond when we sense God is asking us to do something?  People respond to God’s nudging in several different ways.  Obviously, the best response is to say “Yes” and do what God is asking you to do. A great example of this was Saul, on the road to Damascus, who was blinded by a bright light and heard Jesus talking to him and calling him to ministry.  Saul followed God’s direction and changed his name to become Paul, an apostle and author of much of the New Testament.  Many people don’t make this response for a variety of reasons such as fear, lack of faith, avoidance or distraction.

For me, when I first sensed God’s call to do something for Him, the response was “Not Now”.  I had things that needed to be finished first.  I had three kids in college with lots of tuition bills yet to pay.  I had a good job, a great salary and I had my plan and future all figured out, or so I thought.  Seven more years of work and I could retire from Target and then I would do whatever God wanted me to do.  I would be in control because I would not have to worry about a salary and I could provide for my own expenses.  I had “Golden Handcuffs”.  I made too much money to ever think I could survive on a ministry income.  I was in control and that was right where I liked to be.

My guess is that for many of us, this is the response we have given to God when He has asked us to do something for Him.  We will do that when we have more time or when we finish something else first.  We may not get on a boat and go in the opposite direction like Jonah, but we find things to occupy our minds and time so that we don’t think about what we are avoiding or running away from.  Satan often fills out lives with busyness so that we do not have the time to hear God.  And even if we hear Him, we think that there is no way we can do it.

However, I think the biggest reason why people don’t respond to God’s call is fear.  Satan loves to fill us with fears, raising questions in our mind if we are good enough or capable to do what God is calling us to do.  Moses is a great example of this.  God called him to go and lead the Israelites out of Egypt.  Five times Moses protested and said he was not qualified or good enough.  God responded five times to Moses’ fears and objections.  God’s responses to Moses should help us when we are dealing with our own fears when asked to do something for God.  Our fears are really made up of our lack of faith and that creates the doubts that we have.

Here is the sequence of the Moses’ calling, his response and how God responded in Exodus 3.  God talks to Moses through the burning bush and says the following:

“Now go, for I am sending you to Pharaoh.  You must lead my people Israel out of Egypt.  But Moses protested to God, Who am I to appear before Pharaoh?  Who am I to lead the people of Israel out of Egypt?” Exodus 3:10,11 NLT

 

The first fear is Insecurity – Who am I?  We all feel insecure when God asks us to do something.  We don’t feel qualified to do what God calls us to do.  However, God generally doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies those He called.  II Corinthians 3: 5-6 says it best:

“It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own.  Our qualification comes from God.  He has enabled us to be ministers of His new covenant.”

I have to remind myself often that God calls us so that He will be glorified, but so often I forget this and think that I am doing something because I want to be glorified.  God calls me as I am, totally unqualified, so that He can be glorified through what is accomplished through me.  Remembering that should help overcome some of our fears.  See how God responds to Moses.

And God’s response –

God answered, I will be with you.  And this will be your sign that I am the one who has sent you:  When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God at this very mountain.”  Exodus 3:12 NLT

But Moses protested a second time.

But Moses protested, “If I go to the people of Israel and tell them, ‘The God of your ancestors has sent me to you’ they will ask me, ‘What is his name?’ Then what should I tell them?” Exodus 3:13 NLT

 

The second fear is Credibility – Who sent me?  What is my credibility to do the work of God? Will I be accepted?  We deal with a world that doubts whether God even exists and if there really is a God. People are skeptical and are quick to question whether to accept your calling.  This is something many of us feel.  I don’t have the right education or background to do God’s work.  I need to have a seminary degree so that people will know that I speak for God.  How can I convince people to listen to or follow me?

God’s second response:

God replied to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.  Say this to the people of Israel:  I AM has sent me to you.”  God also said this to Moses, “Say this to the people of Israel:  Yahweh, the God of your ancestors – the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob – has sent me to you.  This is my eternal name, my name to remember for all generations.” Exodus 3:14,15 NLT

God goes on to tell Moses that he will be accepted by the leaders of Israel and that the King of Egypt will need to be convinced.  God will perform miracles and the people of Israel will be allowed to leave Egypt with great gifts given to them by the people of Egypt.  But that was still not enough to convince Moses to act.

But once again Moses protests a third time.

But Moses protested again, “What if they won’t believe me or listen to me?  What if they say, “The Lord never appeared to you?” Exodus 4:1 NLT

 

The third fear – Failure – this has always been the fear that holds me back the most.  I don’t want to fail, so it’s better to not try at all.  We all can think of things that we have been led to do, but we say “no” because we don’t feel like we can do it well enough.

But God responds to this protest with a group of miracles that God will do through Moses – turning a staff into a snake, turning his hand into a diseased hand and then curing it and turning water into blood.  But that was still not enough for Moses.  He had a fourth protest:

But Moses pleaded with the Lord, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words.  I never have been, and I’m not even now, even though you have spoken to me.  I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.”  Exodus 4:10 NLT

 

The fourth fear – Public Speaking – this is a fear that I have struggled with most of my adult life.  I feel that I am not a good speaker, I get nervous in front of people.  This fear has held me back on many occasions.  “Have someone else say it” or “They are better than me” are the lies that I have told myself.

I love God’s response in the next verse:

Then the Lord asked Moses, “Who makes a person’s mouth?  Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see?  Is it not I, the Lord?  Now go!  I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.” Exodus 4:11,12 NLT

If I could just remember those words and use them when I have struggles with my fears!

But Moses objected a fifth time.

But Moses again pleaded, “Lord, please!  Send anyone else.”  Exodus 4:13 NLT

 

The fifth fear – Responsibility – I don’t want this pressure.  “Use someone else.”  This is the last hesitation, but often this is really the root of all the other objections.  We just don’t want to do what God is asking us to do.  This gets at the inner core of our faith and willingness to let go of our comforts and what we know as normal.  So often, we don’t want to give up our control.  This was what was holding me back.  I liked my routine.  I liked the income I had and the freedom that came with it.  I thought I was doing enough for God as I was generous in my tithes and offerings, I attended church regularly and I served in various volunteer roles over the years.  I learned that God didn’t want my things, God wanted me!  And as I study the Bible and from my own experiences, I have learned that God gets what He wants one way or another.

Here is how God responded to Moses’s final objection.

Then the Lord became angry with Moses.  “All right,” he said.  “What about your brother, Aaron the Levite?  I know he speaks well.  And look!  He is on his way to meet you now.  He will be delighted to see you.  Talk to him, and put the words in his mouth.  I will be with both of you as you speak, and I will instruct you both in what to do.  Aaron will be your spokesman to the people.  He will be your mouthpiece, and you will stand in the place of God for him, telling him what to say.  And take your shepherd’s staff with you, and use it to perform the miraculous signs I have shown you.”  Exodus 4:14-17 NLT

Notice in the end God did not let Moses off the hook.  He provided a spokesperson to help Moses overcome his fears, but he still sent him on to complete what God wanted him to do.  We may think our fears will change our calling, but, in reality, we are only delaying the blessing and joy that God has for us in following His lead.

Reflection Questions

  • What are the fears you struggle with when you are wrestling with following God’s call for your life?
  • What keeps you from saying “Yes” when you sense God is asking you to do something?
  • How can you use God’s responses to Moses to help you overcome your own fears?

 

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Is God Enough?

Why is it so hard to truly believe that God is enough?

I have been wrestling with the idea of God being all I need. We hear the words, know that they are true, but then live our lives as if we don’t really believe that God is enough. Why else would our lives be so filled with comparison, worry and disappointment? Why is something that is so powerful and fulfilling so hard to believe and accept? Why do we chase things in our life instead of turning and falling into God’s open arms?

I have believed in God practically my whole life. I was raised in a Christian home, attended church every week and had daily devotions and prayer, but as I look back on my life, I have lived it as if God was never enough. He was part of my life, but never enough! Why did I always chase after more – more money, more friends, more responsibility, more power, more attention, more of the good life, you fill in the blank ________? Why is it so hard to turn to God for all that He promises to give to us? Why when you are disappointed or hurt do you turn to others or “self-medicating” instead of turning to God first or at all? Why is it when you feel lonely you forget to turn to God who is your friend?

I have come up with four things that I think contribute to this behavior. There are probably more, but here is what I have found to be the drivers for me:

Fear of Missing Out – It is hard to be “all in” with God when you feel like you are missing out on the fun. I am learning though, that God doesn’t want to take the fun away from you, He wants to be part of the fun!
Lack of Contentment – we always want more and it seems like we never have enough. Even though we are richly blessed and have more that we need, we want to have a bigger house, a nicer car, a better job, etc. God still gives us amazing gifts and blessings, but when we lack contentment we fail to appreciate God for what He has given us and believing that it is enough.
Feelings of Insecurity – when we think we are not good enough or when we sin, we are afraid that we have done something that will make God not love us. But we have to remember that God loves us for who we are and not for what we do or have done. His love doesn’t change. It is our feelings about our behavior that causes us to change and avoid God.
Lack of Trust and Faith – for me this has always been the biggest reason why God has not been enough. I believed that I had to work harder and that I was in control. When I learn to put my life in His hands and allow Him to guide and direct my actions, it is so much easier to trust and have faith. Over the past six months each day has been a step of faith and I am learning to let go of worry and trust Him. As I take steps of faith I am finding that God is enough!

I have learned over the last six months that I have so much greater joy when I let go of the fears and insecurities and learn to go to God first with my thoughts, needs, desires and frustrations. When I let God be enough, I don’t have to worry about not doing my share. I don’t have to worry about what others think of me. I find I am much more able to live out the “fruits of the spirit” in my life. Allowing God to live through me is so fulfilling and exciting. I wonder what I have missed out on in this life because I wanted more and couldn’t allow God to be enough?

When you are holding on to things in your life, your hands are not free to wrap them around God. You give him a partial hug because you keep your other hand holding on to what you want or try to hide it from God. Learn to let go of those things that control you so that you can learn to believe that God is enough for you.

My questions for you:

  • What areas of your life do you live that show you believe God is not enough?
  • What do you have to let go of so that you can put your arms around God?
  • What things do you have to stop doing because it makes you feel unlovable?
  • Who can you show God’s love to this week?
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God’s Confirmation Follows Your Obedience

“God’s confirmation follows your obedience” – Steven Furtick

Have you ever read a tweet or seen a post on facebook that just hits you? You know that there is something in it that you need to do something with, but you don’t know what it is! That is what this tweet from Steven Furtick has done to me this past week! Here is what I have been processing to help explain why this has impacted me so.

I want to hear God’s confirmation before I will take action!

It is so much easier to move forward when you receive God’s confirmation, but it removes the element of trust and faith. I can say I want to follow God’s calling for me, but if I am unwilling to take a step of faith and show my trust, do I really believe? This is the case for us. We have not received our 501c3 approval from the IRS that will establish Potential Endeavors as an organization that can receive tax deductible donations, but God is telling us to move forward with ministry plans for the next year. It would be so much easier if we knew we could receive donations to help cover our costs, but still we have no confirmation. We know we should move forward and trust that God will provide.

Taking steps of faith before confirmation is scary

It is so much easier to take action when you have a clear confirmation and have received money to pay expenses. It is scary to trust God and that He will provide when we need it. Of course, I know that God is in control and He promises to give us what we need, but my human nature has a hard time not being a little scared to spend and trust.

What if I am wrong?

My mind can always get in the way of my faith. I over think things all the time. Even though we have clearly heard God’s direction for our lives and He has opened doors for ministry, I can still have doubts. What if our 501c3 is denied? What would we do if we do not get approval? Even to these doubts God provides answers. This week I was sharing our ministry plans with a friend. I shared about these doubts and what if scenarios. His response was: “If you do not get approval, I know of other organization that you could partner with that would allow you to receive donations for your ministry.” Why do I have doubts when God speaks so very clearly?

What is confirmation? How is it different than following God direction?

This gets back to the original tweet. In reality God just wants my obedience to follow Him and do His work. He has shown us the opportunities where we can be involved, He has opened the doors and now it is up to us to walk through them. We must show our faith by trusting and believing! When we do our part, I believe that God will provide His confirmation in a way that enables Him to be glorified and not our actions.

Some questions for you as you read this today:

  • Where does God want you to show your obedience?
  • What confirmation are you waiting for before you take a step of faith?
  • What doubts do you need to let go of?
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Ukraine

What’s Next

We just got home from an amazing trip to Ukraine and Germany and we had so many amazing experiences. Here are four things that God taught us on this trip:

God puts people in your life every day that are easy to miss!

One of the things I learned on this trip is that God is always putting people in your life for a reason, but in my past, I too often was so busy with my own agenda that I missed people that were on God’s agenda for me. One example of this. When we were on the train from Kiev to Lviv on our way to participate in English camps with Campus Ukraine, we were sitting next to two women. Our train left very early so people slept most of the way, but as we started to pull into Lviv, our friend Dima struck up a conversation with the two women next to us. One of them was a university student, so he introduced us as Americans who were on our way to Lviv to work in the English camp. He invited her to camp, told her when it was and where. She responded with a familiar response – I think I am busy. Well when the camp started on Tuesday night, who walked into our class – the girl from the train. This began a new friendship that I believe God will use in a powerful way.

God has plans for you, if you are patient enough to wait for His timing!

We went on our trip to Ukraine to explore ministry opportunities for the future. We knew that God was leading us to work in Ukraine, but as we left for this trip we had no idea what those opportunities would be. Throughout our trip we met with many different teams and learned about their ministry and what their needs were and how could we help them. As we completed our trip, we had come up with ten different opportunities that were presented to us. One of these opportunities was one that we never expected. We met with a church leader over churches in the Cherkasy region. We went into the meeting not expecting any ministry opportunities to come from it, but God had other plans. It turns out that our meeting was an answer to his prayers. He had been praying for a year that someone would come to help him work with the churches in his region to help them make the changes needed to reach those who need Jesus in their region. I believe this was the very meeting that God had prepared for us to show us what He had planned for us. It is amazing how God puts all the pieces together in His timing!

Take time to listen and ask how you can pray for people!

One of the best parts of this trip was the number of meetings we had with different people from cities across Ukraine. We had meetings with people from Lviv, Kiev, Cherkasy, Chigirin and Odessa. Even though we live 5000+ miles away and speak a different language, we still serve the same God! There are opportunities across the world to share the love of Christ to those who need and are searching for it. While in Lviv, we stayed in a hostel that had a common area that was used as a lunchroom. Each evening after working in the English camps we would sit in the common area and talk. Each night God would bring new people to the table from across the world and we would have an opportunity to talk with them. During our time in Lviv, we had the opportunity to share God’s love and plan for salvation with a man from China, who spoke no English or Ukrainian, but we shared through Google Translate; an atheist from Belgium who was backpacking across Eastern Europe and an American from Philadelphia who was traveling across Europe before starting graduate school. We also had many meetings with ministry leaders working in Ukraine. We could hear their story, listen to their needs and challenges, provide encouragement and then pray for them. It was incredibly powerful to see how God is working through the lives of so many people.

Take the time for that one additional conversation!

On our last day working in Ukraine, we had the opportunity to share with Campus Ukraine Catalytic team from Kiev. We had a fun afternoon of sharing stories, discussing time management and team dynamics. As the day ended and people were off to other commitments, one couple stayed behind because they wanted to ask us something. Their friends were encouraging them to get to the car as they had a train to catch, but they wanted to talk. It turns out that they live in the Odessa area and they work with Campus Ukraine, military families and pastor a church that is striving to reach their community. They wanted to talk because they wanted to ask if we would be willing to meet with them to help them in their ministry. We said yes and gave them our contact information. We have already had one meeting, and I believe that God is going to use this family to make a big impact in their community.

God is so good! We are so excited to begin making plans for ministry with Ukraine in the years to come. We still have many obstacles – like approval of our non-profit from the IRS – but I believe that we know where God wants us to take the next step and continue to remember to TRUST HIM!

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Ukraine

Undiscovered Roads

We are super excited to be heading to Ukraine next week. We have meetings with many people and groups and we are praying that God will use this trip to reveal to us where He wants us to be working next.

This is a very different trip for us. We do not have a defined purpose other than to listen to God’s direction. For me this is probably the hardest part. I am not used to doing things without a defined plan and clear outcomes. We have no idea what will come next after this trip.

During this trip, we will be visiting three cities, meeting leaders of three different international ministries, meeting with some church leaders and spending some time with friends. We will be attending an English camp and experiencing a week of what that type of ministry could look like. We are going into each meeting and experience with these two simple questions:

What could we do to help you in your ministry?
Is this where God wants us to give our time and energy?

We do not know what the answer to these questions will be. If this trip is anything like our past seven months, the answer will probably be very different from what we would think or expect. God has a way of surprising us with answers that are very different from what our thoughts or expectations are. We are praying that God will reveal to us His plans in His timing and that we would continue to be faithful and walk through each door as He opens them, no matter what they may be.

We know that this trip is part of His plan and we feel confident that ministry in Ukraine is part of what God has for us. We have no idea what that ministry or work will be. That makes this both very exciting as well as very scary. Learning to be faithful and truly trust God is a journey. Each turn of the road provides another opportunity to challenge our faith and willingness to allow God to lead us.

Here are our prayer requests for this trip:
• That God will reveal to us His plans for Potential Endeavors.
• That we will be faithful to walk through doors that He opens.
• That we will trust God and not try to figure it out based on our own wishes and ideas.
• That we will be used by God to encourage and support others.

Thank you for going along with us on this journey through your prayers and thoughts!

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Journey

Real Peace?

For the past several years I have selected a word for the year.  In the past, I have had words like TRUST, INSPIRE, and FAITH.  This year the word I selected was PEACE.  In my journal on January 9th, I wrote the following:

“Submit to God, and you will have peace; then things will go well for you. Listen to his instructions, and store them in your heart. If you return to the Almighty, you will be restored— so clean up your life.”
Job 22:21-23 NLT

This verse stood out as it tied to my verse for the year – PEACE.  I struggle with wanting to know why and how come, but in reality, God calls us to submit to Him, listen to His instructions and store them in my heart and then I will have peace.

The past five years have been filled with turmoil, trials and continual challenges.  Just when I have thought that I have come through the storm, another event hits me and I have struggled with finding peace in my surroundings.  I have often wanted more than I have instead of learning to rest in the peace provided by God.  That is why this is my word for this year.

In my small group this morning, I shared my word for the year.  One guy was surprised as he felt that I demonstrated a lot of peace.  I said externally yes, but internally there is always a war going on.  It is like a duck – sitting calmly on the water, but you don’t see the feet going crazy keeping everything afloat.  A good analogy.

When I selected this word, I was coming off a season of changes at work and I was striving to find contentment with my work situation and thought PEACE was a good word to focus on.  Little did I know how much I would learn about PEACE in the following months.  While I thought PEACE was a lot about an outcome and an absence or turmoil, I have learned that PEACE is so much more.  During the past six months, I have learned the following:

PEACE is about giving up control.  I used to think that I would have peace when I was in control of my future.  Having a good job, a good salary and money in the bank were all things that I thought I needed to find peace.  But I have found that being in job transition, having no income and living off of savings has been more peaceful than when I was employed with a steady income.

PEACE is about living in turmoil and conflict and not letting it impact you.  Peace does not mean you will not have problems or conflict, but rather that because of the peace you have you are able to deal with the challenges that come at you.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. —James 1:2–3

“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” —John 16:33 esv

PEACE is about letting go of worry.  I did not realize how much worry impacted my life.  I worried about what people thought of me, whether I was doing a good job or if I was working hard enough.  Worry filled my life and caused me to lose peace.

“Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.”  Philippians 4:4-8 NLT

PEACE is about trusting God.  I have learned that trusting God is so peace giving.  Today I have no idea what I will be doing tomorrow or where my next paycheck will come from, but I trust God and know that He will provide.  It is amazing how much peace that gives you.

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.”
John 14:27 NLT

My prayer for you is that you too will learn that peace is not the absence of problems but rather that peace is when you put your trust and hope in God and His plans for your life.